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[mcferrin]

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[allyourfeels]

I mean someone who can like, force blind rage into people turned the dial on Sam so hard it broke?

[ he's not sure of how to explain it, but it feels like he has to, for everyone's sake. there's someone out there who can do what caleb can do, but they're dangerous. ]

I can like... feel emotions, and they always match the person, like... fuck, a color. Sort of? Or a shape, I know which feelings belong to which person. But the rage Sam was feeling didn't match, like, shoving mismatched puzzle pieces together.

[mcferrin]

[ he's quiet for a little while, trying to make sense of all of that. then all he says is: ]

So he really did kill her.

[allyourfeels]

[ there's a pause, followed by a deep, shaky breath. ]

Yeah.

[mcferrin]

Okay. Uh. Thank you for telling me.

[ his throat is tight and his voice is watery. he should probably say something else, something more appropriate, but he just- he can't think right now. ]

[allyourfeels]

Hey, look. It, uh— people come back. They don't always remember everything right away, but they do return.

[ caleb doesn't know how widespread the information is, but he knows about three people who've died and come back, it's safe to assume it applies to everyone. ]

[mcferrin]

I hope so. But it's just-

[ he pauses to keep himself from crying. clears his throat. ]

It's not fair. I just thought we would. I don't know. I should have known it was too good to last, I guess.

[allyourfeels]

I am very sorry. I don't— I know it sucks. I hope it doesn't suck for long.

[mcferrin]

Thank you. I'm sorry, I'm-

[ he's trying not to unload on caleb, but he's barely holding it together. losing blue is devastating enough, but it's like losing sam too and it's just. it's a lot. and it pisses him off. ]

If you see Sam can you-

[ another long pause. ]

Nevermind.

[allyourfeels]

He's staying with me. He's— not okay but I'm keeping an eye on him.

[ caleb fully intends to keep sam close until he's sure sam's better. or at least okay enough not to do anything stupid. ]

[mcferrin]

Fine.

[ maybe he says it a little too curtly, but he didn't expect how hearing about sam would make him feel. ]

Um. Listen, about last week...

[ he doesn't know how to finish that sentence now that he started, actually. ]

[allyourfeels]

[ right, there is that too. ]

I... fuck, I'm. I don't think either of us did anything we didn't want to do at the time. But it also wasn't us so. I'm sorry.

[mcferrin]

No, no. It was fine. I- yeah. I suppose I just wanted to make sure we were cool because I think I'm going to need some space for a little while.

[ he doesn't know the most polite way to say "we probably won't be talking for the foreseeable future, but it's not you" so this will have to do. ]

[allyourfeels]

Yeah, yeah. I'll be available if you wanna talk, but I get it if you don't want to.

[ caleb cares but he doesn't really know henry. he can look after sam and hope things turn out okay eventually. ]